Thursday, March 27, 2003
*Breathe Deep*
It's been a LONG LONG day... Of course things are just as crappy as ever... while E CLAIMS he's not drinking after I told him about Dev's so so angry comment that Daddy BETTER stop drinking soda, I have my doubts... and of course he had to do the verbal redress to me again.. I am sooo tired of being emotionally torn apart and degraded about EVERYTHING I do.... or didn't do... I just can't do it anymore... E made a statement he's giving it 14 days of sobriety and if things aren't better he's leaving... all the better I say... I will tough out the 14 days to get me thru my next shift of 10 nights starting Sat and long enough to get the car up and running NLT Weds!! Sadly I have very little sadness knowing the end of the tunnel is near and the light is brighter in my life... I really guess the marriage has been over for a long time and it's time we all were happier in life... YES I have about $9000 worth of debt but I am gonna work on doing some debt negotiation and get that cleared up... and YES I will have it tough w/the boys esp on my night shifts but I will do what I have to and I am applying for 2 slightly higher paying day shift jobs... Wish me luck - I feel that this year IS gonna be a better year for me...
And on to the dentist... Deven and I had our second appts today... they filled a deep cavity on me and said in the future we will have to consider a root canal or since it's a wisdom tooth - pulling it... Dev had one cavity filled and a root canal on his back molar - a bit of a rough spot getting started after they numbed him and wanted to start drilling but we got thru it and next time HE will go first instead of me - I think we just had him there too long... He needs 2 or 3 more fillings including one more root canal (*sigh* never wait til 5.5 for 1st dentist appt) and then he will get 2 baby crowns... Me - turns out I need not just a bridge and crown but FOUR crowns - total price - $775 MY Co-pay - I asked them to resubmit asking for acrylic crowns as they are a NO Co-pay item so I will just have the bridge of $125 to deal with... If not it will be a lifetime of payments for me! *sigh* I will know more when I take Dilen back on 16th I guess if not sooner since I will probably call them on the 7th and see what's up...
Well I guess I better turn in... I am off tomorrow but have to work on my report for class that's due Thursday and the afternoon will be spent working on the car most likely... Til next time...
It's been a LONG LONG day... Of course things are just as crappy as ever... while E CLAIMS he's not drinking after I told him about Dev's so so angry comment that Daddy BETTER stop drinking soda, I have my doubts... and of course he had to do the verbal redress to me again.. I am sooo tired of being emotionally torn apart and degraded about EVERYTHING I do.... or didn't do... I just can't do it anymore... E made a statement he's giving it 14 days of sobriety and if things aren't better he's leaving... all the better I say... I will tough out the 14 days to get me thru my next shift of 10 nights starting Sat and long enough to get the car up and running NLT Weds!! Sadly I have very little sadness knowing the end of the tunnel is near and the light is brighter in my life... I really guess the marriage has been over for a long time and it's time we all were happier in life... YES I have about $9000 worth of debt but I am gonna work on doing some debt negotiation and get that cleared up... and YES I will have it tough w/the boys esp on my night shifts but I will do what I have to and I am applying for 2 slightly higher paying day shift jobs... Wish me luck - I feel that this year IS gonna be a better year for me...
And on to the dentist... Deven and I had our second appts today... they filled a deep cavity on me and said in the future we will have to consider a root canal or since it's a wisdom tooth - pulling it... Dev had one cavity filled and a root canal on his back molar - a bit of a rough spot getting started after they numbed him and wanted to start drilling but we got thru it and next time HE will go first instead of me - I think we just had him there too long... He needs 2 or 3 more fillings including one more root canal (*sigh* never wait til 5.5 for 1st dentist appt) and then he will get 2 baby crowns... Me - turns out I need not just a bridge and crown but FOUR crowns - total price - $775 MY Co-pay - I asked them to resubmit asking for acrylic crowns as they are a NO Co-pay item so I will just have the bridge of $125 to deal with... If not it will be a lifetime of payments for me! *sigh* I will know more when I take Dilen back on 16th I guess if not sooner since I will probably call them on the 7th and see what's up...
Well I guess I better turn in... I am off tomorrow but have to work on my report for class that's due Thursday and the afternoon will be spent working on the car most likely... Til next time...
